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hi
i am terrry, i like to spell terry with 3 or more r's, sometimes though.
the only thing i carry with me, have kept carrying with me is my self belief. that has stayed against being tamed and i have aided it too.
i am 27,
Peers would be fast at pinpointing that i am still young but my '27' is quite old, for me it is old ! My 27 has carried life in it's entirety, it is heavy. My 27 has come across knowing that no human deserves suffering, it has come across knowing that many times it is not about us, it is more about watching others in happy state and imbibing its sweetness. My 27 has come across knowing that Jehovah is love, love in an unfathomable way.
My 27 has and has kept asking 'why', why do deeds good or bad have to have consequences, why do we have to helplessly watch people suffering, when to bring to bring them happiness has nothing to do with going to the ends of the earth. Why? Why must a simple endeavor as wanting to visit a country of choice be like a summit-like dream ?’
I am 27,agreed! But my parents are attaining 60, when, when will i give them tears of joy as my goals entail? When will i cry tears of joy and cry it on the first page of my diary to rumple it as a souvenir or cry it for keeps in a bottle labelled “tears of joy” ?
My 27 has asked has asked 'what' . What’, what i am doing, what am i doing here if i cant touch the globe from outside or a part of it with picture-like memories made by me, what? 'when' When will i breathe fresh air? When will my sweet heart thump and burst soothing laughter out of me?
We, each of us ask these questions.
There's that prettiness in every human that loves beauty, feelings, tiny emotions, colors, fulfillment, that loves to drool over our creations, that wants to open our mouth along with our open nose to be filled with transparent beautiful air, that wants to feel a lump of coolness through the gut as we swallow through on an ice-cream, that wants to feed the birds, that wants to let that tiny ant go or save it as it struggles to come out of a droplet of water.
Please be patient as write cos to write this, i am appealing to my heart to lay itself bare along with the tears that well my eyes. They just well up in tears , tears hardly fountaining enough to drop, these days. i have had that topic in my scrapbook for a long time but never wrote out it's content. ' tears that never dropped'.
I am strong, i am willing, driven and even within my virtual prison i have dreamt, i have kept on with goals cos my prison to me has kept on, only like a bubble , it will burst, for if i have retained any element of stubbornness it has been for incessantly poking at my bubble.
I am here to inspire you too, for people go to the moon today and it started with the very look-like-insane possibility from the first man who believed it was possible to go to one tiny thing in some night sky.
I have kept believing!
I am terrry and here is how it has been for me and nothing is about me. i am just one slim guy and many other good things. i am mere dust but i have you, the world, my friends, i have a heart that beats and feels.
Jehovah our maker, i am sure stays up there and has beautiful fun watching his creation in happy state. I have maintained wanting a house where i can have as many people discover their dreams, excite themselves, while i watch from a parapetted tower or some cctv. Those are tiny pleasant feelings n i never gave room to believing that not each human is deserving of these. even the lillies stay pretty how much more feeling humans.
I gave in to 3 years of clinical depression and i accept the blame. Nobody wants the sweat that comes from sadness but the questions i ask within me kept beating me,there were so many, enthusiasticly aimed at driving into questioning the very essence of the art of living, but i kept fighting. Even a lizard or chicken with how unshaped it is for swimming won't drown in hours cos it was fighting and i fought.
Amidst depression and even priorly, i swelled from the beautiful thoughts i sought to conceiving of, thoughts that gave me fulfillment. I wouldn't call it my outlet but it did me up for fixing. i really couldn't create as much as a spoon if i was allowed eternity in this world alone but i certainly may have conceived of a spoon-way of eating someday. I would have out-questioned why we must forever used our hands to eat. U know, ideas not yet conceived of or questioning existing ideas n fixing them., I can say i have had up to a hundred ideas but all have stayed virtual. I have obstinately kept on with the belief that our brains need a little more exerting n whoever is behind the name 'Bill Gates' only did the exerting of our brains on behalf of us.
life has been a tutor, and i am becoming some sort of tutor too, I came to developing the notion that if we have to spend our lives suffering, working hard then it should have essence, it should leave a disney world for our children still in void else it would be a reckless 21st century slavery.
If i was behind prison bars, that to me was an understandable form of slavery,constriction, compared to being told to sit on a chair for eight hours without bars only to toss any dreams we have ever built under the same chair.
Granted i have not I really have played roles within my brain but there is still no sign that i was here or that i am here.
Please treasure yourself, many of us may have just unfortunate, may just have been placed in unfitting environment.
Many times we are in an un-enabling environment, where you are hardly dared to dream. You may be dared to eat 10 loaves of bread or a jar of semi-liquid.
In this places, even money loses its essence. You hit at it, i mean money and all u want to do is taunt others, show off well enough to spite others.
In these places,if you ever get to dream, you will shove your dreams off a cliff then do a horrendous down climbing to pick the pieces of your dream, feel sorry for them, believe in them again only to toss them off again till pieces are spattered so afar of that there comes no means to dream again, cos in these places you are the only one believing and that is for if you are fighting strong.
In this places as much as concerted tiny information stays hidden for forever-like years that u keep carrying a truck on your head wen it is so easy to toll it with 10 igloos. In these places it is so suitable to live a routine. Eat, drink and manufacture enormous dung,pls pardon me this once, this is only direct thing i would say. Our new found love becomes a 45 min comfort room session with the white-flag whistling that follows.
Hmmm!
There is also another place, the roaches so know we were here in these places cos they feed on our spit. In this place ambition is easy, laff laff laff, smoke and spit every chance we get. It is all about, 'your feelings r you, even the tiniest endurable tingling, thus be inclined by them, irrationalism can hold. No drive, everything is just a game, no questions asked, no conscience used, no empathy needed,no goals formed, it is me, all about me and my instant-momentary-happiness,
These two place are so similar, if u choose to be a little deep, dare to dream, it is far-fetched not to be alone, if
I have been in these places, it is life, it is hard, life is hard but choices are there for the making. I am not floored!
My labor thus became in my fantasy, how’s is life out there, i would listen to a rihanna’s song and try to define what heart created the intriguing emotions attached to her song, or i would look at the contours on Oprah Winfrey's face and delve into how made laughters shaped her current face. Kk she wanted to have 2 large trees in her fairy home, she dared to dream. I look at facial expressions on people in general i get to see on tv, documentaries and know there are untapped emotions,emotions i have only imagined, there is an enabling environment. People have asked questions, people have questioned why a fruit fell as opposed to going for the kill only to discover gravity, thus there is a world of peeps like us, we r not alone, we are just in one room, in some unknown places.
I only started watching youtube n it wudnt take me time to identify what more youtube can accomplish. I instantly see ideas that would make youtube potentially more millions materially, as much as the entire world in queue as its traffic but i just go to my scrapbook and there bury my thuts. The truth is i am not to useless afterall and nobody is. Ur very existence excites another life!
i have written many unpublished things, my beauty when i think is mostly from my never circumventing even the most trivial thoughts. i mean i would look at the kids wearing their flip flops wrongly and let us see i may scold them to correct the act then be able to see extreme intelligience in they always do that wrong act correctly, i thus wud ask as many questions too, perhaps they have a longing the uncomfortable sensation that we frown at
All i have always ask is simple
With all the maths i have ever learnt, i have estimated at lleast 100 peeps in this round globe connected to me by blood. I appeal with all my heart to every heart. Many times we dont have to grind our teeth to be known of as in dire need of dire help.
I have been in these places.recently, I started research for 1 month using the internet, i had that as my new pass-time recently, all in my room and in this brief period i figured how people tap into their wealth and it is possible, they advertise to the globe there possession, and these can take different forms but i have no possession,
this is my possession, my very first and it is my entire heart with figments of my brain on this very page.
I am here, i am so here and i am saying this with all the energy my crying brings, i am here, hidden in the rubble.
Dear beyonce please find me, if u want me to sing dangerously in love or write out an article describing all the emotions n emotions i tap into listening to a song made by you, i so would but i would plead for your help to get a usa visa too. Dear oprah if you told me to sit on your chair to tell u a story that i would create on the spot, i so would,
i used ur songs to re boot this endeavor, celine dion, i wud sing ur wen i was younger,learnt your way of pronouncing, micheal jackson
This is my first possession and i lay it bare, this feels like my very first invention, an idea completed, please share
The bottomline
I have not stayed so useless as to discard my very own self.
An emotional roller coaster
I am floored
I am mere dust
Wen 4 yes means a life’s onset
Here the cover page of the first book i cudnt bring it to comppletion
When i was in nigeria,My counterparts would brag about 1000 friends and 800 pending request and i wud usually say this to them, i wud rather go for a true cos the truth is for many of us like me we never had a true friend almost never. The exact truth is this, if we had just 10 true friends in entirety growing up then 'life' will be a more beautiful word. I have only had one true friend and here is an excerpt of our conversation. A book of our raw dialogue will tell of the love,............ and the beauty true friendship brings, it goes out of it’s way
Here, an excerpt
The internet provides a forum for discovery, virtual possibiliites n limelight but the truth many just discover it. I did figure a lot out only recently. I spent one month on reseacrching like i said earlier on how millions are met over the internet. I tried to delve into the world cos the internet hosts us n in this short time i cud analyse a lot, millions are made n i figured out that ways people use are countless. But in the short time too i cud also figure out things untapped still. I jst started looking at youtube and it has so much room for improvement, it is setting to host an entire population. In my mind’s eye saw n thus wrote these ideas out. Same as facebook, i was having a short chat with a friend, i commended her pictures with her kids on facebook n witth instant effect i had an idea popping up n a short conversation ensued but many times we have no other resort to function n our ideas never come to light. I tried to message him but i dont if there is a chance to get to its ceo.
Bottomline i am not that useless
Kk i refuse to work sometimes but i have some potential, amidst all odds, i still can have a short resume but now in what category does this fall, is the information that is lacking. A particular keyword on a google search engine will take me to an exact bus-stop away from sorrow to some fulfillment but this tiny info keeps on as missing n it is not about being dumb sometimes it is about not being the place where information thrives or people or cliques who want to share your belief and prompt u.
Now choices n goals come in here, there is no crime in being how i am or in one being how he is thus all we can do is quest with a lil more zest till we can link with peeps who are how we are, a driving force.
Sometimess all we need to attain our goals, to be seen to a mind-blowing world-touching idea is someone like us. Sometimes all we need is to sit on a rolling chair and look at a beautiful ceiling and see a moth instead of two roaches hating at each other but we need to see that ceiling, sometimes all we need is to tire out, tire out of the lifestyle we have come to know and view more of colors. We werent created to see just black and white,colors are involved. Please know lifeis or isnt pretty.
Sometimes our talent may be going up and down an escalator but we spent a major sum of our years gambling cents as talent because we never came across an elevator. Sometimes our bride may have been a 'beyonce’s daughter' but we spent youth drooling over a damsel because we r have been deaden by the inequality life seems to offer and have accepted an additional right, the right not to see the beautiful world JEHOVAH gave us.
It is hard not to be taken over or floored if we lived in places where in 20 years you never experienced, " terry close your eyes, surprise!". Or in places where even the animals don't want to see you, "kk same old guy, what’s new !. Ur self belief is so,so in life imprisonment, someone gives u used pants as gift n all u r, is so shocked to receive them cos they where several pieces n u r like 'can all this be happening, all these for me ! . It is hard to believe, to dream, to think, to ask questions, to want to go to the moon n if u r stubborn enuf to do all these things, it is hard not to forget them. To maintain believe in places like this, is the hardest work i have seen. Kudos to us !
I would usually say to my peers that if i go to USA, it will take me two years to execute one of my many ideas etc cos i believe n it starts with believing. I have this potential, i would call that my talent but where to place this talent is the information that has kept lacking. Too is the fact, that life for me begins there. i have as goal touring the world, usa will give me peak into the world with it's mixture of nationalities, it is english speaking, that and
i am on a long road with this but this not going to the moon, it is a simple humanly attainable choice, please grant me please, having this as a cause, my very first and i believe my only cause, my fulfillment, my only possession. supporting me materially and i will save only for this cause. i appeal too, to the interviewers at the USA embassy whenever i appear there for an interview,, i will gift you with happy tears, please support my overall cause for a visa. i live in philippines all by myself away from my family who stay in africa as a pass-time away from 3 years of clinical depression only to be touched by your help enroute Usa where my life begins. Many people require 4 yes' to go to VEGAS as is said on reality tv shows, all i ask is one heartfelt, resounding yes for me from you.
i lost already the ability to be happy till i can learn anew, for now the only way to get happiness for me is from watching others in happy state. i want to touch the globe from outside and i have imprisoned potential but i see my prison as a bubble with your many yes', we'll poke at it and it will burst. I apply myself entirely to asking for this help because i am mere dust.
I see peeps like me but i see them, yeah i see them on tv, yep they are many out there, please pick me up, i am here. I want to go to usa
I want to go to usa
Four yes’
hi
i am terrry, i like to spell terry with 3 or more r's, sometimes though.
the only thing i carry with me, have kept carrying with me is my self belief. that has stayed against being tamed and i have aided it too.
i am 27,
Peers would be fast at pinpointing that i am still young but my '27' is quite old, for me it is old ! My 27 has carried life in it's entirety, it is heavy. My 27 has come across knowing that no human deserves suffering, it has come across knowing that many times it is not about us, it is more about watching others in happy state and imbibing its sweetness. My 27 has come across knowing that Jehovah is love, love in an unfathomable way.
My 27 has and has kept asking 'why', why do deeds good or bad have to have consequences, why do we have to helplessly watch people suffering, when to bring to bring them happiness has nothing to do with going to the ends of the earth. Why? Why must a simple endeavor as wanting to visit a country of choice be like a summit-like dream ?’
I am 27,agreed! But my parents are attaining 60, when, when will i give them tears of joy as my goals entail? When will i cry tears of joy and cry it on the first page of my diary to rumple it as a souvenir or cry it for keeps in a bottle labelled “tears of joy” ?
My 27 has asked has asked 'what' . What’, what i am doing, what am i doing here if i cant touch the globe from outside or a part of it with picture-like memories made by me, what? 'when' When will i breathe fresh air? When will my sweet heart thump and burst soothing laughter out of me?
We, each of us ask these questions.
There's that prettiness in every human that loves beauty, feelings, tiny emotions, colors, fulfillment, that loves to drool over our creations, that wants to open our mouth along with our open nose to be filled with transparent beautiful air, that wants to feel a lump of coolness through the gut as we swallow through on an ice-cream, that wants to feed the birds, that wants to let that tiny ant go or save it as it struggles to come out of a droplet of water.
Please be patient as write cos to write this, i am appealing to my heart to lay itself bare along with the tears that well my eyes. They just well up in tears , tears hardly fountaining enough to drop, these days. i have had that topic in my scrapbook for a long time but never wrote out it's content. ' tears that never dropped'.
I am strong, i am willing, driven and even within my virtual prison i have dreamt, i have kept on with goals cos my prison to me has kept on, only like a bubble , it will burst, for if i have retained any element of stubbornness it has been for incessantly poking at my bubble.
I am here to inspire you too, for people go to the moon today and it started with the very look-like-insane possibility from the first man who believed it was possible to go to one tiny thing in some night sky.
I have kept believing!
I am terrry and here is how it has been for me and nothing is about me. i am just one slim guy and many other good things. i am mere dust but i have you, the world, my friends, i have a heart that beats and feels.
Jehovah our maker, i am sure stays up there and has beautiful fun watching his creation in happy state. I have maintained wanting a house where i can have as many people discover their dreams, excite themselves, while i watch from a parapetted tower or some cctv. Those are tiny pleasant feelings n i never gave room to believing that not each human is deserving of these. even the lillies stay pretty how much more feeling humans.
I gave in to 3 years of clinical depression and i accept the blame. Nobody wants the sweat that comes from sadness but the questions i ask within me kept beating me,there were so many, enthusiasticly aimed at driving into questioning the very essence of the art of living, but i kept fighting. Even a lizard or chicken with how unshaped it is for swimming won't drown in hours cos it was fighting and i fought.
Amidst depression and even priorly, i swelled from the beautiful thoughts i sought to conceiving of, thoughts that gave me fulfillment. I wouldn't call it my outlet but it did me up for fixing. i really couldn't create as much as a spoon if i was allowed eternity in this world alone but i certainly may have conceived of a spoon-way of eating someday. I would have out-questioned why we must forever used our hands to eat. U know, ideas not yet conceived of or questioning existing ideas n fixing them., I can say i have had up to a hundred ideas but all have stayed virtual. I have obstinately kept on with the belief that our brains need a little more exerting n whoever is behind the name 'Bill Gates' only did the exerting of our brains on behalf of us.
life has been a tutor, and i am becoming some sort of tutor too, I came to developing the notion that if we have to spend our lives suffering, working hard then it should have essence, it should leave a disney world for our children still in void else it would be a reckless 21st century slavery.
If i was behind prison bars, that to me was an understandable form of slavery,constriction, compared to being told to sit on a chair for eight hours without bars only to toss any dreams we have ever built under the same chair.
Granted i have not I really have played roles within my brain but there is still no sign that i was here or that i am here.
Please treasure yourself, many of us may have just unfortunate, may just have been placed in unfitting environment.
Many times we are in an un-enabling environment, where you are hardly dared to dream. You may be dared to eat 10 loaves of bread or a jar of semi-liquid.
In this places, even money loses its essence. You hit at it, i mean money and all u want to do is taunt others, show off well enough to spite others.
In these places,if you ever get to dream, you will shove your dreams off a cliff then do a horrendous down climbing to pick the pieces of your dream, feel sorry for them, believe in them again only to toss them off again till pieces are spattered so afar of that there comes no means to dream again, cos in these places you are the only one believing and that is for if you are fighting strong.
In this places as much as concerted tiny information stays hidden for forever-like years that u keep carrying a truck on your head wen it is so easy to toll it with 10 igloos. In these places it is so suitable to live a routine. Eat, drink and manufacture enormous dung,pls pardon me this once, this is only direct thing i would say. Our new found love becomes a 45 min comfort room session with the white-flag whistling that follows.
Hmmm!
There is also another place, the roaches so know we were here in these places cos they feed on our spit. In this place ambition is easy, laff laff laff, smoke and spit every chance we get. It is all about, 'your feelings r you, even the tiniest endurable tingling, thus be inclined by them, irrationalism can hold. No drive, everything is just a game, no questions asked, no conscience used, no empathy needed,no goals formed, it is me, all about me and my instant-momentary-happiness,
These two place are so similar, if u choose to be a little deep, dare to dream, it is far-fetched not to be alone, if
I have been in these places, it is life, it is hard, life is hard but choices are there for the making. I am not floored!
My labor thus became in my fantasy, how’s is life out there, i would listen to a rihanna’s song and try to define what heart created the intriguing emotions attached to her song, or i would look at the contours on Oprah Winfrey's face and delve into how made laughters shaped her current face. Kk she wanted to have 2 large trees in her fairy home, she dared to dream. I look at facial expressions on people in general i get to see on tv, documentaries and know there are untapped emotions,emotions i have only imagined, there is an enabling environment. People have asked questions, people have questioned why a fruit fell as opposed to going for the kill only to discover gravity, thus there is a world of peeps like us, we r not alone, we are just in one room, in some unknown places.
I only started watching youtube n it wudnt take me time to identify what more youtube can accomplish. I instantly see ideas that would make youtube potentially more millions materially, as much as the entire world in queue as its traffic but i just go to my scrapbook and there bury my thuts. The truth is i am not to useless afterall and nobody is. Ur very existence excites another life!
i have written many unpublished things, my beauty when i think is mostly from my never circumventing even the most trivial thoughts. i mean i would look at the kids wearing their flip flops wrongly and let us see i may scold them to correct the act then be able to see extreme intelligience in they always do that wrong act correctly, i thus wud ask as many questions too, perhaps they have a longing the uncomfortable sensation that we frown at
All i have always ask is simple
With all the maths i have ever learnt, i have estimated at lleast 100 peeps in this round globe connected to me by blood. I appeal with all my heart to every heart. Many times we dont have to grind our teeth to be known of as in dire need of dire help.
I have been in these places.recently, I started research for 1 month using the internet, i had that as my new pass-time recently, all in my room and in this brief period i figured how people tap into their wealth and it is possible, they advertise to the globe there possession, and these can take different forms but i have no possession,
this is my possession, my very first and it is my entire heart with figments of my brain on this very page.
I am here, i am so here and i am saying this with all the energy my crying brings, i am here, hidden in the rubble.
Dear beyonce please find me, if u want me to sing dangerously in love or write out an article describing all the emotions n emotions i tap into listening to a song made by you, i so would but i would plead for your help to get a usa visa too. Dear oprah if you told me to sit on your chair to tell u a story that i would create on the spot, i so would,
i used ur songs to re boot this endeavor, celine dion, i wud sing ur wen i was younger,learnt your way of pronouncing, micheal jackson
This is my first possession and i lay it bare, this feels like my very first invention, an idea completed, please share
The bottomline
I have not stayed so useless as to discard my very own self.
An emotional roller coaster
I am floored
I am mere dust
Wen 4 yes means a life’s onset
Here the cover page of the first book i cudnt bring it to comppletion
Here, an excerpt
Here’s
Kk i refuse to work sometimes but i have some potential, amidst all odds, i still can have a short resume but now in what category does this fall, is the information that is lacking. A particular keyword on a google search engine will take me to an exact bus-stop away from sorrow to some fulfillment but this tiny info keeps on as missing n it is not about being dumb sometimes it is about not being the place where information thrives or people or cliques who want to share your belief and prompt u.
Now choices n goals come in here, there is no crime in being how i am or in one being how he is thus all we can do is quest with a lil more zest till we can link with peeps who are how we are, a driving force.
Sometimess all we need to attain our goals, to be seen to a mind-blowing world-touching idea is someone like us. Sometimes all we need is to sit on a rolling chair and look at a beautiful ceiling and see a moth instead of two roaches hating at each other but we need to see that ceiling, sometimes all we need is to tire out, tire out of the lifestyle we have come to know and view more of colors. We werent created to see just black and white,colors are involved. Please know lifeis or isnt pretty.
Sometimes our talent may be going up and down an escalator but we spent a major sum of our years gambling cents as talent because we never came across an elevator. Sometimes our bride may have been a 'beyonce’s daughter' but we spent youth drooling over a damsel because we r have been deaden by the inequality life seems to offer and have accepted an additional right, the right not to see the beautiful world JEHOVAH gave us.
It is hard not to be taken over or floored if we lived in places where in 20 years you never experienced, " terry close your eyes, surprise!". Or in places where even the animals don't want to see you, "kk same old guy, what’s new !. Ur self belief is so,so in life imprisonment, someone gives u used pants as gift n all u r, is so shocked to receive them cos they where several pieces n u r like 'can all this be happening, all these for me ! . It is hard to believe, to dream, to think, to ask questions, to want to go to the moon n if u r stubborn enuf to do all these things, it is hard not to forget them. To maintain believe in places like this, is the hardest work i have seen. Kudos to us !
I would usually say to my peers that if i go to USA, it will take me two years to execute one of my many ideas etc cos i believe n it starts with believing. I have this potential, i would call that my talent but where to place this talent is the information that has kept lacking. Too is the fact, that life for me begins there. i have as goal touring the world, usa will give me peak into the world with it's mixture of nationalities, it is english speaking, that and
i am on a long road with this but this not going to the moon, it is a simple humanly attainable choice, please grant me please, having this as a cause, my very first and i believe my only cause, my fulfillment, my only possession. supporting me materially and i will save only for this cause. i appeal too, to the interviewers at the USA embassy whenever i appear there for an interview,, i will gift you with happy tears, please support my overall cause for a visa. i live in philippines all by myself away from my family who stay in africa as a pass-time away from 3 years of clinical depression only to be touched by your help enroute Usa where my life begins. Many people require 4 yes' to go to VEGAS as is said on reality tv shows, all i ask is one heartfelt, resounding yes for me from you.
i lost already the ability to be happy till i can learn anew, for now the only way to get happiness for me is from watching others in happy state. i want to touch the globe from outside and i have imprisoned potential but i see my prison as a bubble with your many yes', we'll poke at it and it will burst. I apply myself entirely to asking for this help because i am mere dust.
I see peeps like me but i see them, yeah i see them on tv, yep they are many out there, please pick me up, i am here. I want to go to usa
I want to go to usa
Four yes’
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